Thursday, September 29, 2011

You Win Some, You Lose Some

I missed you blog! It's been a while since my last update, but trust me, it was worth the wait if you're reading this! Do I have a story...

Let's go back to Friday the 23rd.

I woke up early that day because I had some outpatient Chemo that I was scheduled to receive in the morning. Mom and I got there about 10:20 and were asked to wait for my doctor to give me a check up. That wait was probably the slowest part of that day! Two hours of waiting later and I finally am called to see the doctor. As usual, the check up went well and I was asked to go to the Infusion Room. The Infusion Room is where outpatients stay and receive their chemo and they later leave. Getting my chemo was no problem at all, I can never feel it, it doesn't take a long time, and I usually just play on my phone not really paying much attention. By this point, I was seeing that I didn't feel any different and I was hoping I wouldn't have a bad reaction to the medicine. Finally it was done and we could leave, oh joy! 

Now for the good part...

On our way home I got incredibly hungry and mom decided to go to Chili's since it was early for dinner and it would probably not be full. When we got seated I got terribly cold. I never before felt cold so quick. Getting through the meal was so unpleasant. I was beyond cold and I didn't understand why. The check couldn't of come any faster that day. When we arrived home I felt even worse. I managed to change my clothes and I went to lay on the couch. I started getting horrible shivers, nothing like I had experienced before. Finally mom decided to go to the ER. I was there for a good five hours. My blood pressure had gotten really low and I felt so terrible. I was being pumped with fluids through my PICC Line and a new, very painful IV on my other arm. My condition required me to be transferred to the the main hospital, and I got to go in an ambulance!! 

I was on the stretcher waiting to leave while I was hooked up to all these machines!

Saturday the 24th...

I was in the PICU, Pediatric Intensive Care Unit. It was HORRIBLE. There was no actual bathroom in my room and I had to stay hooked up to all these monitoring machines. I felt so miserable being in there. I was already much better since being in the ER, I just wanted to go home. Later in the afternoon I got the good news that I had gotten a room in the upper floor! I had never been happier in my entire life!!! I could finally go to the bathroom in an actual room! The rest of the day was really calm and I felt much more...alive. Sunday went by really quick. I didn't do much, but I was happy with that. I got discharged Monday afternoon and that literally sounded like the gates of Heaven opening and angels singing Hallelujah. And now, here we are! 

I made this blog until today because I was honestly putting it off. I don't know why, I guess I was just being lazy. But today I got the most amazing present and I really felt so happy and cared for that I decided to write. I got a lovely card signed by classmates in my 2nd period Anatomy Class and I got a gift card from Charming Charlie! WooHoo! Hope it doesn't have an expiration date cause I probably won't be going to any stores soon, haha. Besides the cards, I got a beautiful Prayer Shawl with a bunch of bright colors! I totally love it! I really am touched with everything and it gave me new hope. Hope that I really needed. I miss school now. I can't wait till all this is over and I can once again feel like my normal self.

                                                     "Life is a mystery."

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Who's Hungry? Ugh, Don't Talk About Food...

Finally, I'm able to blog. 

Small recap: I have been in the hospital since Friday and today I am actually feeling good enough to write! I have been getting treatments in the night and Friday night was not good for me. 6 treatments really take a toll on me. But last night I only got 2 treatments and i feel much better!!

My hospital stay has been good. I got a room in the evening and I got a really nice visit from Steven, Layla, and her boyfriend Jacob. I was really happy they came all the way downtown to visit and see how I'm doing. Friends <3 Brownie Points to Steven who gave me a Hello Kitty doll! Best. Gift. Ever.

Oh, did i forget to mention that I shaved my head? Yeah, my hair is gone and I'm actually glad. I was shedding like crazy and it was so horrible! I left hair everywhere I sat and it was really frustrating. Now that it's finally gone you would not believe how easy it is to wash my head! Haha. I know my hair will soon grow back and I really hope it's gonna be cute. :)

I will be going back home Monday and I will probably be stuck at home trying to finish all the school work I'm missing...wish me luck! Haha.

For your entertainment....Myself with a cap BUT, my baldness is noticeable :P

                                           "Live your life with arms wide open
                                                                                         -Natasha Bedingfield 

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Don't Stop Me Now!

Today, is good day. I feel great! Wanna know why? I'll tell you why...I GOT A WIG!


I can finally stop the horrible shedding by shaving my head. I'm kind of like Britney Spears circa crazy shaving episode. Haha, kidding. But in all seriousness, I cannot wait to shave my hair off! Too bad I will most likely look weird, unlike the little girls with bald heads, TOO CUTE!

This Friday (9/16) I have to be admitted in the hospital again, hopefully it well go well. Being in the hospital isn't all that bad. There are volunteers that come around with crafts or cute dogs and just keep me entertained. Sadly, the TV's don't have all the channels! Main point, there really isn't much I can complain about in the hospital, except the food....thank God good food places deliver to my room! 

I feel happy. Simple. I feel great with my new wig! But....there is something i noticed. I kind of look like someone with my wig. Someone famous. Someone well known.....


It's like we're sisters! Haha.

"Ain't no way you're ever gon' get Any less than you should."
                                                                                     -Justin Bieber 

Monday, September 12, 2011

Sickness Can't Stop Me From Being Fabulous.

Sorry I haven't updated in a few days. I can't decide if it was because of laziness or the fact that really nothing interesting happened. Maybe both. But that's not the point!

It's currently 1 a.m. and I haven't slept yet. My close friends who know me fairly well should know that I am not one for sleeping early. I usually stay up watching Netflix on my phone. As I was finishing an episode of The Tudors, I grew bored and was just messing with my phone until something on the IMDb widget caught my attention. Actor Andy Whitfield from Spartacus died at the age of 39. My initial thought was he was too young, as I read on I discovered he died from a battle with a Non-Hodgkin's Lymphoma.

Woah. Lymphoma. I have...nothing to say. Reading that really impacted me. What if I had a Non-Hodgkin's instead of my very curable Hodgkin's Lymphoma? My life could be in serious danger. I feel so grateful, blessed, and lucky that I have a very good prognosis and will more than likely recover well. 

Sometimes, people can easily forget how good life can be here, I know I did. I should be more grateful for everything I am fortunate enough to have. In fact, everyone should be grateful for their things. Even though problems can come up in life, someone else always has a worse situation.

"Even though I'm not always right, I can count on the sun to shine"
                                                                                  -All Time Low 

Thursday, September 8, 2011

My Short Hair!

What can i say? I love the camera. I think it loves me back too...

I'm just here, Living.

Waking up every morning at my own pace is really nice. I'm still waiting for my home schooling to start and I can truly say, I LOVE WAKING UP WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT!

I honestly miss school. Although, there are better teachers than others. Either way, I miss them all. It's hard having to see your friends only when they're free from homework or just the weekend. I feel very secluded.

My Immune system is not running at max and I can't be around crowds. No amusement parks. No movies. No restaurants. No grocery shopping. Just staying at home or in the hospital.

Having Cancer really puts a totally new perspective on life. I feel its really cliche to say this, but I now cherish all the good moments in my day. Doesn't matter how tiny or how noticeable it is, its a moment that I will never relive and its important to cherish it.

One day, I'll proudly say "I beat Cancer.", "I'm a Cancer Survivor." But for now, I can say, go away Cancer, I have better things to focus on!

"I'm a survivor, I'm not gonna give up, I'm not gon' stop, I'm gonna work harder"
                                                                                                   -Destiny's Child 

Wednesday, September 7, 2011


I don't really suppose I have a knack for blogging just yet, but it doesn't hurt to try. So, here i am.

I guess I should let you know a little about me.

My name is Jackeline Michelle Reyes. Most people just call me Jackie. I'm currently 17 and I am a senior in high school. I am an average girl, with an average life. Never did anything spectacular, amazing, or astonishing. My favorite color is pink, I am pretty much in love with heels and Hello Kitty. I'm very different and proud.

This past August I was diagnosed with a Lymphoma. 
If you don't know what that is, it's a type of cancer effecting my immune system.

Anyways, I've started my chemotherapy already and it hasn't been THAT bad. For example, I've only thrown up me, that's a huge victory. Even though the nausea has been tranquil and manageable there is one other side effect that really has taken its toll on me, hair loss. My beautiful mane has been shedding like crazy. I really thought my hair would of lasted longer. 

Hair loss gave me a tiny bit of depression, but as of this moment, my hair was cut short. I'm not bald or anything! It's just short. I'm actually quite fond of it. I feel like a new person. A person who got back their confidence. A person who has new strength to fight this cancer. I feel free. 

"I just wanna be myself and I want you to know, I am my hair."
                                                                                            -Lady Gaga